Mephobia - fear of becoming so awesome that the human race can't handle it & everybody dies. I suffer from this. Modesty - freedom from vanity/boastfulness. This, not so much.

Studying & enjoying the view.

Dear Inspiration,

You’ve finally given me a word that describes the entirety of my lifetime so far: “spectator”. I watch people. I watch people succeed. I watch their finished products. I watch the resounding success from these products. I watch the world build into an empire filled with resounding successes from finished products from very successful people.

Then, I stop watching. I start thinking. It’s the thinking that has destroyed me for so long. I think of how I won’t be able to be that person, that person who succeeds, whose finished products arouse resounding success & help inspire an empire.

Then, I stop thinking. I start watching again. & the more I watch, the more thinking invades. I can’t escape thinking anymore. All I ask – the deities of the human lifetime – is to arrive at some point, some blip in the radar, some dot on the timeline, my timeline, where watching & thinking finally cease forever. So that I may start doing.

Daily Text Message

Friend: Call/text me when you are on your way.
Me: Potassium.
Friend: ? Autocorrect get ya?
Me: Nope. On the periodic table, the symbol for potassium is K.
Friend: OMG! You are such a nerd!

You can't make the same mistake twice. The second time you make it, it's no longer a mistake, it's a choice.